fuck yer day

Feeling like something left me.Oh, yeah. it did.

Such a wicked trail I’ve left over the years. Such a mess I can’t clean up.

Moving back to Nebraska. Not a failure, don’t get your hopes up darling. I’m gonna be in Europe for 2 1/2 months. Got to save me up some money. Paying $750 a month for rent just dosn’t allow any room for putting money away. As much as I hate Nebraska, this is a sacrifice I have to make for myself.

I’m gonna have a fucking blast in Europe, so two months of loneliness back in the midwest is no problem.I made a vow not to rot.

Here I go. Gonna stay fresh.

I’ve got festivals to build. Deserts to conquer. Beers to drink. Couches (and pubs) to surf. It’s on.

new chapter

Everyday I'm itching to leave more and more.
I'm gonna try and get my plane ticket for june then just couchsurf till Nowhere.I see these people having so much fun... I really need to get out more.
I secured my deposit and a chunk of change from my landlord for the move. We talked about everything and he was satisfied with our agreement. He feels bad that I got so sick being there, and he knew I wasn't a pushover.

Now everything I own is taking space in my friends living room. I hate feeling like a burden, and I'm trying like hell to find a new place to live within the week.

I keep taking these flights of fancy, then burning them to the ground regardless of who else is tagging along.

baba yaga

Hey. Ha.
The skeleton woman. Reared her head before you even had time to react. I've got a little secret for you... give her your heart and you both will be saved. Her bones with flesh out, and the fire in her eyes will grow ever brighter.
The river under the river has been dammed. These days pass with a most unwelcome slow flow.
If I call you here will you take the time to hold your ear to my lips as I whisper my fears?

snippets

Emotionaly charged. Emotionaly drained.
Dreams override my thoughts of this day. As they have the days past.I keep pondering my next move. Will I take the castle?
Friendship, something that has been so foreign to me these past few years (with a few exceptions) has become a fact of life here. Surrounded by hands that are ready to catch me if I let them.

desert rat

Well, I'll be staying in Black Rock till October.
Busting ass and taking names.
I send a warm FUCK YOU to all of ya'll
Waking up at 6 in the morning, working out in the desert till dinner, then busting back the PBR till 3 in the morning.
Repeat, repeat, repeat.
What a fucking blast.
I'm meeting the most hardcore dedicated people out there. Smiles all around.
I took my first shower in weeks today. What a mudbath.
Take care.

DPW as fuck!

Yeah that's right.
bow down mother lickers.
Out with my kiwi babes.going out tomorrow.
to the playa.
oh yeah.

California dreaming

I might move to San Francisco. To live with my SANE (i.e. not paranoid schizo) best friend. I miss her so much. She was my anchor for so long. I'm hoping living with Katt will help me to become the person I have always desired to become.I'm so happy being here with all of my wonderful friends. I feel so different... so at peace.Though everyday my heart is broken, being so vulnerable I am growing stonger.